I watched 'Wake up Sid' last week and I came out feeling really good. Now isn't that what a Director or a Producer and the Actors are aiming to do whilst putting it all together? They want audiences to enjoy their couple of hours in the theatre. But ofcourse movies like Wake Up Sid can mean different things to different people. It's a very run of the mill story of a college boy who graduates but doesn't actually graduate mentally. Life's still fun and games. Until ofcourse his results come out and he fails.
Reality check.
He argues with the folks and leaves home. Ofcourse before this he's made friends with a girl who's just moved to Mumbai, helped her set up and now seeks refuge with her to calm the storm. Ofcourse he still hasn't grown up yet. His course of staying with her and realizing for once that he has to do everything on his own steers down a path to actually being able to enjoy the rewards of Independence where you can work hard and play hard. All the while getting closer to the girl and then falling in love with her. He gets a job makes up with the folks and then hooks up with the girl - happy ending.
But some of us have had some of these exact same feelings, where our future doesn't really seem to matter and all that does is living in the moment. Until ofcourse it catches up with you and you realize that if you don't wake up your gonna get left behind. His arguement with his Dad before leaving home reminded me of my relationship with my Dad, where we never see their point of view and all they really want for us is to see us succeed and make somethin of ourselves.
I had 2 points to this post.
One ofcourse was how cinema like this, the type we can relate with is sometimes what we just want to watch. Not your larger than life action heroes but just your normal regular college boy character that you can relate with. Bingo, someone you can relate with. Thats what the Director was trying to do and kudos to him. I know plenty of people like me who could relate with that character and ofcourse evoke certain emotions within us that sometime's we'd like to see on celluloid instead of our everyday lives.
The second being emotion. All our states of mind - happiness, sadness, anger, hate etc. that can be drawn out. I hope to one day make a movie where I can evoke certain emotions and create real characters that real people can relate with. I came out of Wake up Sid thinking that was such a sweet, simple and real story and it touched certain chords within me. I find myself listening the soundtrack of the movie feeling the emotions that the characters felt whilst it played in the movie.
But that's just the magic of cinema isn't it? Where your invited to be a part of someone else's world for a couple of hours. Someone you wish you were or could be. Someone you'd aspire to be or that someone who doesn't make the same mistakes. Point being movies for me have always been so real, they've always wielded that power over me that I use or incorporate into my day to day life, I just don't know what I'd do without it....
I guess there's no businesss like show business....
Monday, October 12, 2009
Sunday, October 04, 2009
Reasons for 2012
Reason one: Mayan calendar
The first to predict 2012 as the end of the world were the Mayans, a bloodthirsty race that were good at two things -- building highly accurate astrological equipment out of stone and sacrificing virgins.
Thousands of years ago they managed to calculate the length of the lunar moon as 329.53020 days, only 34 seconds out. The Mayan calendar predicts that the earth will end on December 21, 2012. Given that they were pretty close to the mark with the lunar cycle, it's likely they've got the end of the world right as well.
Reason two: Sun storms
Solar experts from around the world monitoring the sun have made a startling discovery. Our sun is in a bit of strife. The energy output of the sun is, like most things in nature, cyclic and it's supposed to be in the middle of a period of relative stability. However, recent solar storms have been bombarding the earth with lot of radiation energy. It's been knocking out power grids and destroying satellites. This activity is predicted to get worse and calculations suggest it'll reach its deadly peak sometime in 2012.
Reason three: The atom smasher
Scientists in Europe have been building the world's largest particle accelerator. Basically, its a 27 km tunnel designed to smash atoms together to find out what makes the universe tick. However, the mega-gadget has caused serious concern, with some scientists suggesting that it's properly even a bad idea to turn it on in the first place. They're predicting all manner of deadly results, including mini black holes. So when this machine is fired up for its first serious experiment in 2012, the world could be crushed into a super-dense blob the size of a basketball.
Reason four: The Bible says it
If having scientists warning us about the end of the world isn't bad enough, religious folks are getting in on the act as well. Interpretations of the Christian Bible reveal that the date for Armageddon, the final battle between good an evil, has been set for 2012. The I Ching, also known as the Chinese Book of Changes, says the same thing, as do various sections of the Hindu teachings.
Reason five: Super volcano
Yellowstone National Park in United States is famous for its thermal springs and old faithful geyser. The reason for this is simple -- it's sitting on top of the world's biggest volcano and geological experts are beginning to get nervous sweats. The Yellowstone volcano has a pattern of erupting every 650,000 years or so, and we're many years overdue for an explosion that will fill the atmosphere with ash, blocking the sun and plunging the earth into a frozen winter that could last up to 15,000 years. The pressure under the Yellowstone is building steadily, and geologists have set 2012 as a likely date for the big bang.
Reason six: The physicists
This one's case of bog -- simple maths mathematics. Physicists at Berkely University have been crunching the numbers.
They've determined that the earth is well overdue for a major catastrophic event. Even worse, they're claiming that their calculations prove that we're all going to die, very soon. They are also saying that their prediction comes with a certainty of 99 per cent; and 2012 just happens to be the best guess as to when it occurs.
Reason seven: Earth's magnetic field
We all know the Earth is surrounded by a magnetic field that shields us from most of the sun's radiation. What you might not know is that the magnetic poles we call North and South have a nasty habit of swapping places every 750,000 years or so -- and right now we're about 30,000 years overdue. Scientists have noted that the poles are drifting apart roughly 20-30 kms each year, much faster than ever before, which points to a pole-shift being right around the corner. While the pole shift is under way, the magnetic field is disrupted and will eventually disappear, sometimes for up to 100 years. The result is enough UV outdoors to crisp your skin in seconds, killing everything it touches.
The first to predict 2012 as the end of the world were the Mayans, a bloodthirsty race that were good at two things -- building highly accurate astrological equipment out of stone and sacrificing virgins.
Thousands of years ago they managed to calculate the length of the lunar moon as 329.53020 days, only 34 seconds out. The Mayan calendar predicts that the earth will end on December 21, 2012. Given that they were pretty close to the mark with the lunar cycle, it's likely they've got the end of the world right as well.
Reason two: Sun storms
Solar experts from around the world monitoring the sun have made a startling discovery. Our sun is in a bit of strife. The energy output of the sun is, like most things in nature, cyclic and it's supposed to be in the middle of a period of relative stability. However, recent solar storms have been bombarding the earth with lot of radiation energy. It's been knocking out power grids and destroying satellites. This activity is predicted to get worse and calculations suggest it'll reach its deadly peak sometime in 2012.
Reason three: The atom smasher
Scientists in Europe have been building the world's largest particle accelerator. Basically, its a 27 km tunnel designed to smash atoms together to find out what makes the universe tick. However, the mega-gadget has caused serious concern, with some scientists suggesting that it's properly even a bad idea to turn it on in the first place. They're predicting all manner of deadly results, including mini black holes. So when this machine is fired up for its first serious experiment in 2012, the world could be crushed into a super-dense blob the size of a basketball.
Reason four: The Bible says it
If having scientists warning us about the end of the world isn't bad enough, religious folks are getting in on the act as well. Interpretations of the Christian Bible reveal that the date for Armageddon, the final battle between good an evil, has been set for 2012. The I Ching, also known as the Chinese Book of Changes, says the same thing, as do various sections of the Hindu teachings.
Reason five: Super volcano
Yellowstone National Park in United States is famous for its thermal springs and old faithful geyser. The reason for this is simple -- it's sitting on top of the world's biggest volcano and geological experts are beginning to get nervous sweats. The Yellowstone volcano has a pattern of erupting every 650,000 years or so, and we're many years overdue for an explosion that will fill the atmosphere with ash, blocking the sun and plunging the earth into a frozen winter that could last up to 15,000 years. The pressure under the Yellowstone is building steadily, and geologists have set 2012 as a likely date for the big bang.
Reason six: The physicists
This one's case of bog -- simple maths mathematics. Physicists at Berkely University have been crunching the numbers.
They've determined that the earth is well overdue for a major catastrophic event. Even worse, they're claiming that their calculations prove that we're all going to die, very soon. They are also saying that their prediction comes with a certainty of 99 per cent; and 2012 just happens to be the best guess as to when it occurs.
Reason seven: Earth's magnetic field
We all know the Earth is surrounded by a magnetic field that shields us from most of the sun's radiation. What you might not know is that the magnetic poles we call North and South have a nasty habit of swapping places every 750,000 years or so -- and right now we're about 30,000 years overdue. Scientists have noted that the poles are drifting apart roughly 20-30 kms each year, much faster than ever before, which points to a pole-shift being right around the corner. While the pole shift is under way, the magnetic field is disrupted and will eventually disappear, sometimes for up to 100 years. The result is enough UV outdoors to crisp your skin in seconds, killing everything it touches.
The end of the world.... or so they say.
I received an email on 2012 the other day. It's a movie directed by Roland Emmerich the same guy who's made 'Independence Day' & 'The Day After Tomorrow'. Both very larger than life films. Apparently according to selective groups of people in the world, we are destined(scientifically/non-scientifically) to see the end of our world in the year 2012. Which is yes, in our very own lifetime. The reasons that these people seem to have, have been posted in my previous post. I'm not a scientist or a priest or a philospher, I'm just a curious guy like most other people. I want to know whether this is a possibility. Or more so if there was evidence linked to it, would the people who knew about it actually disclose it. I think it's pretty unpredictable to say how us human beings would react if we knew the world was coming to an end and there wasn't a damn thing we could do about it. I guess all of us would like to do different things, or be with certain people. But as movies have shown us what seems most likely to occur is wide spread panic. Now if this we're the case, the people who have evidence of this or rather who were smart enough to gather evidence of this are probably smart enough not to disclose it for the above mentioned reasons. Or at least not yet. 2012 is still a couple of years off. So are there preparations being made to save our species that we do not know about?
Your probably thinking that I watch too much tv. And you know what... your probably right. But I like to imagine these hypothetical situations where tomorrow we wake up and realize that for every day till 2012 our days are numbered. It would probably seem like making an effort to do anything would be absolutely pointless. Most people would be encompassed by a 'whats the point?' attitude.
Now I'm still trying to figure what the point was about this post, I seem to have lost it somewhere. I guess there are so many things that happen in this world for which we have no answers. Scientists would probably say that there probably is an explanation. But I know for a fact that there are things that happen for which there are no answers. Now all of us fear what we do not understand. But what if the world was actually coming to an end? It's happened once before, I don't see any dino's outside my window. Why can't it happen again? I know.. so many what if's and so many why's. But what with global warming and ozone depletion it seems like we're doing a pretty good job of shaking the normal order/balance of things.
Your probably thinking that I watch too much tv. And you know what... your probably right. But I like to imagine these hypothetical situations where tomorrow we wake up and realize that for every day till 2012 our days are numbered. It would probably seem like making an effort to do anything would be absolutely pointless. Most people would be encompassed by a 'whats the point?' attitude.
Now I'm still trying to figure what the point was about this post, I seem to have lost it somewhere. I guess there are so many things that happen in this world for which we have no answers. Scientists would probably say that there probably is an explanation. But I know for a fact that there are things that happen for which there are no answers. Now all of us fear what we do not understand. But what if the world was actually coming to an end? It's happened once before, I don't see any dino's outside my window. Why can't it happen again? I know.. so many what if's and so many why's. But what with global warming and ozone depletion it seems like we're doing a pretty good job of shaking the normal order/balance of things.
In that case wouldn't the natural order or balance be to press the reset button?
Somehow I'm reminded by the caption of my blog....
You hope, and you dream but you never believe that something is going to happen for you, not like it does in the movies and when it actually does you expect it to feel different more visceral, more real..... I was waiting for it to hit me.
Friday, October 02, 2009
Selling Points...
Well I wasn't actually quite sure what to name this post, but it just sorta struck me this morning about how we are able to convince people to buy things, or how we are able to convince people to vote for them or how we are able to convince them that doing this is the right thing and well... u get the point. I have no qualms in admitting that stating all the facts and benefits that could be accrued consist of a majority in leading to conviction but what I really wanted to touch on was the way it's done.
I heard Obama lobby today for the Chicago 2016 Olympics. Apparently he's the first sitting U.S president to do so. Definitely a smart move on the part of the Chicago delegation to use him as a strong hold considering his skills with oration are pretty much something else. Very few ppl are able to talk and make everyone listen. I may not have necessarily been convinced with his rhetoric's on why the Olympics should be held at Chicago, but i did necessarily listen to each an every word he said simply because he had the power to make me do so. Obviously thats not something that all of us are born with. Either you possess hints of it and you develop it or your just born natural.
Ari Gold played by Jeremy Piven is a fantastic display of what an agent could be like. His interpretation and portrayal of the character is outstanding with his unique characteristics standing out. I know that was a bit random, but when you watch entourage you'll notice that though you don't want to be like Ari, you realize there's no one else like him.
I was reminded of how maybe Marc Antony turned the tide after Caesar went down. A man like Hitler who had that kind of power to convince ppl of what we know he did...well...
Overall I guess no matter how great your gig is... the point is the way you deliver it and the way you get people to buy it that may just set you apart from the rest of them. So I think you shouldn't be discouraged if your not the most intelligent person on the planet coz there's still hope to set yourself apart.
So if you've got everything going for you but cant get it through, this is definitely some food for thought. It's a bit of a power actually, a very strong one at that and an art that you could be born with.
I hold the world, but as the world...
A stage, where every man must play a part..
and mine a furtive one.
I heard Obama lobby today for the Chicago 2016 Olympics. Apparently he's the first sitting U.S president to do so. Definitely a smart move on the part of the Chicago delegation to use him as a strong hold considering his skills with oration are pretty much something else. Very few ppl are able to talk and make everyone listen. I may not have necessarily been convinced with his rhetoric's on why the Olympics should be held at Chicago, but i did necessarily listen to each an every word he said simply because he had the power to make me do so. Obviously thats not something that all of us are born with. Either you possess hints of it and you develop it or your just born natural.
Ari Gold played by Jeremy Piven is a fantastic display of what an agent could be like. His interpretation and portrayal of the character is outstanding with his unique characteristics standing out. I know that was a bit random, but when you watch entourage you'll notice that though you don't want to be like Ari, you realize there's no one else like him.
I was reminded of how maybe Marc Antony turned the tide after Caesar went down. A man like Hitler who had that kind of power to convince ppl of what we know he did...well...
Overall I guess no matter how great your gig is... the point is the way you deliver it and the way you get people to buy it that may just set you apart from the rest of them. So I think you shouldn't be discouraged if your not the most intelligent person on the planet coz there's still hope to set yourself apart.
So if you've got everything going for you but cant get it through, this is definitely some food for thought. It's a bit of a power actually, a very strong one at that and an art that you could be born with.
I hold the world, but as the world...
A stage, where every man must play a part..
and mine a furtive one.
Thursday, October 01, 2009
Time Flies....
I've been hearing that a lot lately. Everyone's like where did the year go, wasn't it just a couple of months ago when we were celebrating new years?! Can you beleive how long we've know each other... can you believe we've together for so long now!? He was soo tiny and now he's sooo biggg and so on and so forth. The point is time is flying. Maybe our planet is spinning a little faster and we're revolving around the earth a lot swifter, I dont know. But I do know that I'm not 21 anymore and I'm 26. Although most of the time I still think and behave like a 21 year old who's just achieved adult status! I think what's hit me about being 26 is that they're a bunch of 20 and 21 year olds winning grandslams and turning into millionaires. While I'm still whiling my time away!
But hopefully some of us are later starters... and hopefully when I say us, I'm not alone in this! I guess if you really believe that something is going to happen for you, why shouldn't it? After all, all we have is our dreams and without that we're nothing. I just really hope that I end up where I want to. I'm doing something that I enjoy and most of all I make the people around me who matter the most, happy.
Time certainly flies...and you better put those wings on or you'll never catch up(hint to self).
But hopefully some of us are later starters... and hopefully when I say us, I'm not alone in this! I guess if you really believe that something is going to happen for you, why shouldn't it? After all, all we have is our dreams and without that we're nothing. I just really hope that I end up where I want to. I'm doing something that I enjoy and most of all I make the people around me who matter the most, happy.
Time certainly flies...and you better put those wings on or you'll never catch up(hint to self).
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Granted....
I was watching the VMA's (Video Music Awards) the other day where Madonna was on stage paying tribute to Michael Jackson. One of the things she said that I hold good in my life today is the fact that we never really realize or know the value of someone or something good until it's gone. MJ's a standing example of it. I mean we all knew what a great performer he was and what a revelation he was to the music industry but it definitely seems to me that his true worth was only realized after his death. The number of tributes on You Tube and the number of people talking you can't escape the fact that he was one of a kind, a prodigy and an entertainer that I'll never see anyone come close to in my lifetime. I'm confident enough to say never without a probably before it.
I just wanted to harp on about the fact that there are so many things in our lives that we take for granted. Our families our girlfriends our jobs, to a certain extent that only once we loose one of them do we realize that the shit's hit the fan and it's time to wake up and see the world a little differently and value these things a little more. I'm not proud to say that I take a lot of things for granted and now when I come to think of it I'm a little afraid to think about what my life would be like if I didn't have them. Aren't we all I guess? I'll probably pen this and try to be a little more wary but will sort of inevitably turn back to being most of my former self because human nature seems to want to play a part in it.
But I for one only hope that in spite of being aware of all this we reach a stage that when we loose something we only wish our levels of regret are low. And that the wish we hadn't's are outweighed by the I'm glads.
Life is short we all seem to say... but do we honestly know how short? You can live your whole life and probably realize at the end that you wish you'd slow'd it down a little or maybe the opposite? Who knows... to each their own I guess.
But a good mix is what I'd like, after all... the sweet don't taste so sweet without the bitter.
I just wanted to harp on about the fact that there are so many things in our lives that we take for granted. Our families our girlfriends our jobs, to a certain extent that only once we loose one of them do we realize that the shit's hit the fan and it's time to wake up and see the world a little differently and value these things a little more. I'm not proud to say that I take a lot of things for granted and now when I come to think of it I'm a little afraid to think about what my life would be like if I didn't have them. Aren't we all I guess? I'll probably pen this and try to be a little more wary but will sort of inevitably turn back to being most of my former self because human nature seems to want to play a part in it.
But I for one only hope that in spite of being aware of all this we reach a stage that when we loose something we only wish our levels of regret are low. And that the wish we hadn't's are outweighed by the I'm glads.
Life is short we all seem to say... but do we honestly know how short? You can live your whole life and probably realize at the end that you wish you'd slow'd it down a little or maybe the opposite? Who knows... to each their own I guess.
But a good mix is what I'd like, after all... the sweet don't taste so sweet without the bitter.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Full Circle
I've been sick for the last couple of days. Well I sorta had something coming on and then one night of debauchery made it even worse and now I'm suffering the after effects of it. It's not something I'm particularly proud off considering I fell sick less than a month ago. I started thinking that all those times I decided to smoke that extra joint or have that extra drink or just smoke cigarettes in a row coz I could is and probably has started to catch up with me. You never really think about the consequences of these things. I guess if you did everyone who smoked and drank in excess would know their limits. I for one have never really known my limits. I've always been one to stretch them pushing boundaries and being rebellious coz it seemed to give me a certain sense of freedom. But I guess where I was drastically wrong was that freedom comes with a certain sense of responsibility that I have failed to possess and I'm not sure whether I will simply because I have failed to acknowledge it all these years.
I've come to the conclusion that I'm quitting alcohol and drugs for the next couple of months with the hope of keeping a clean head and focus on my efforts to get into a respectable business school. Efforts which didn't count enough last year and will hopefully pave the way for a platform of mistakes to learn from. Most of the people I know in my age group are all already so dynamic and doing great things with their life. I can't really say I've done anything significant these past couple of years but maintain a sedentary job that I feel any graduate could have handled. Nevertheless an experience is what it was and there are definitely things that I have come to learn.
I stated in my last post that I would make a serious effort to blog more often and I hope that with these changes that I'm incorporating in my life I manage to do it.
Be the change you want to see.....
I've come to the conclusion that I'm quitting alcohol and drugs for the next couple of months with the hope of keeping a clean head and focus on my efforts to get into a respectable business school. Efforts which didn't count enough last year and will hopefully pave the way for a platform of mistakes to learn from. Most of the people I know in my age group are all already so dynamic and doing great things with their life. I can't really say I've done anything significant these past couple of years but maintain a sedentary job that I feel any graduate could have handled. Nevertheless an experience is what it was and there are definitely things that I have come to learn.
I stated in my last post that I would make a serious effort to blog more often and I hope that with these changes that I'm incorporating in my life I manage to do it.
Be the change you want to see.....
Friday, June 05, 2009
2007? 2009 & already 6 months gone?
Yikes! I remember making that last post. I was all in the mood about how I wanted to make 2007 an exciting an prosperous year. Low and behold, a year and a half later we're in 2009 and I'm back to square one. I hate that word.....square one! It happens to me ever too often and I find myself wondering whether I'll ever snap out of it. I wonder if I’ll ever realize who I am and what I'm supposed to be doing. That's a pretty universal question, if it we're that easy, we'd all be our own gods wouldn't we? But I guess in my case the focus is always lost along some point. The key obviously is to make sure that your able to sustain it and with a certain sense of killer instinct to see it all the way through.
It's funny how sometimes things never really pan out the way you want them too. In my case it's really funny, I'm almost 26 years old and nothings panned out the way I wanted too. But complaints aside, I've had some great times, extraordinary times actually and I've had some wonderful people become a part of my life. For that I feel grateful. I guess you got to balance the good with the bad. Yesterday evening, I had lost hope. I thought fuck... I don't want this life. I don't want this job, I don't want to live in this house. I want out... I want something different... I wanted a new life. But that's not just going to happen with a snap of your fingers. In fact, I realized that a long time ago, which brings me back to my earlier point. Once you wake up and realize your suppose to do something or you feel like your capable of doing it, how do you sustain that momentum and enthusiasm of being able to see it through.
This by far has been the biggest challenge in life for me till date. I suddenly wake up and I realize that I need to do something, I start out great but somewhere alongst the way I falter and I'm back to 'square one'. God I hate that word....
Change.... I've been attempting to do this for a while. I think I've been attempting to change my life so much that I never realized that it had to start from within. There were small little things that I had to do within, that would allow for a brighter landscape.
I've wanted to do and be so many things in my head... but I never realized that sometimes you have to do those small things first to get the ball rolling... I think success as everyone knows can only be enjoyed when you’re ultimately doing something that you enjoy doing. Success comes in many forms and as my dad rightly says "you reap what you sow" ... which is actually not the best thing to come out from his mouth, considering I'm his son! But yeah... I remember back in 2000, when I auditioned for this play called Hayavadhana, it was a Girish Karnad play and I was auditioning for one of the leads. I got the part and then practice started. Most people do not actually realize what goes behind the production of a play, I won't deviate too much from what I'm aiming to get at, but yes a lot goes into it and I since I enjoyed rehearsing for it so much, I only really realized how much effort had gone into it when you take a bow at the end of it. Your happy and you feel a certain sense of satisfaction coz you know you worked your ass off for it and you enjoyed it. I think that was one of the first few times I truly felt happy and I enjoyed the success of one of the best plays performed during theatre week that year.
So as I continue to type this out, I realize that there are certain things that I need to do to get my act together. I want to know that I at least tried so even if nothing's to come of it, I won't really be all that disappointed.
What did Gandhi say? Something about being able to change the world only if you affect change from within first? Well that's probably something that I'd like to attempt to do. Not change the world but affect some change from within. Just sorta thinking about my earlier para... I'd like to actually take part in theatre or get in front or behind a camera at some point. There's something about being out on a stage with a theatre full of people perching their eyes on you. It's that feeling of nervousness turned to confidence when you get out there in front of them which is electrifying....You forget about those hundreds of people looking at you and you realize that being a performer and performing walk side by side....
Enough of the nostalgia. Even though I know there's probably only one person who's going to read this on a regular basis ( start fish story) I will sincerely attempt putting my thoughts down on this blog knowing that reading it a couple of years from now will bring a simple and yet genuine smile to my face....
The saga continues.....
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
A lil bit of Retrospect....now that 2007 has gone by.
So this years been an interesting year. Suddenly when you come to the end of it your wondering how you got to the end so soon. When I think about things that happened exactly around this time last year, it still seems pretty fresh in my memory, so much so that I can say without using it as an excuse that this year went by pretty quick. I’ve heard this from other people as well and time does seem to be moving by exceptionally fast these days.
Anyways, hmmm… anyways I had a quiet new years last year wasn’t anything I’d deem as one of those new years to remember. But it brought in the year pretty much like it usually did and I found the days rolling by simply because there doesn’t seem anything uncommon to remember for the first half of the year. Except for the fact that I started realizing pretty late in the day that there needed things to be done in a time I don’t think I was ready enough to start preparing for. It’s getting quiet and I think I’m starting to like it. Needless to say it’s not like I really have very many options but maybe that’s what I guess I’m starting to like. Oh wait, there was a wedding I remember attending which was pretty eventful. . I do remember having a pretty good time considering there was plenty of alcohol involved and that seemed like a priority at that point moving into when I made a trip to
All of which have left me in retrospect at this point because you really can’t change a lot of things that were said and done but have nevertheless happened and have a consequence about what probably lies ahead. But I’m hoping and beginning to think that starting to think about what could possibly lie ahead is something that I could and should probably start to take control of. Something I pretty much didn’t do through the year.
So I guess whoever says whatever happens, happens for the best is actually full of shit.
The General was down for 2 months and we had some pretty wild times. I think a lot of memories will definitely go down there but that’s what usually happens whenever we get together, so I can really say its unexpected. I ended up meeting 4 people from school for the first time in 6 years so I guess some numbers are improving. I actually ended up meeting an ex for an entire day in
She did however take a photo of me and said it would make a pleasant memory, but I know that she knows the pleasant bit doesn’t go very far.
Although I would like to think I’ve been underground this year I don’t really think I have been, probably not as much as I actually imagine myself to be this year.
But this years going to be different and I sure as hell will have something positive to write about once I get to the end of it….
Thursday, September 06, 2007
Friday, April 13, 2007
Monday, March 26, 2007
You sharpen the human appetite to the point where it can split atoms with its desire; you build egos the size of cathedrals; fiber-optically connect the world to every eager impulse; grease even the dullest dreams with these dollar-green, gold-plated fantasies, until every human becomes an aspiring emperor, becomes his own God... and where can you go from there?
Monday, January 22, 2007
All things
Rise in the light of the sun
Being
Meaning are many, reason's one
For years
Searching, but too close to see
We're here
And this is where, we're meant to be
And born under stars, in eternity
In all that has been, all that is, all to be
A feeling within, still to be fulfilled
Of something inside that can never be killed.
Rise in the light of the sun
Being
Meaning are many, reason's one
For years
Searching, but too close to see
We're here
And this is where, we're meant to be
And born under stars, in eternity
In all that has been, all that is, all to be
A feeling within, still to be fulfilled
Of something inside that can never be killed.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
~Chasing Cars~
We'll do it all
every thing
on our own
we don't need
anything
or anyone
if i lay here,
if i just lay here,
would you lie with me,
and just forget the world
i don't quite know
how to say
how i feel
those three words
are said too much
they're not enough
if i lay here,
if i just lay here,
would you lie with me,
and just forget the world
forget what we're told
before we get too old
show me a garden
thats bursting into life
let's waste time chasing cars
around our heads
i need your grace
to remind me
to find my own
if i lay here,
if i just lay here,
would you lie with me,
and just forget the world
forget what we're told
before we get too old
show me a garden
thats bursting into life
all that i am
all that i ever was
its here in your perfect eyes
they're all i can see
i don't know where
confused about how as well
just know that these things
will never change for us at all
if i lay here,
if i just lay here,
would you lie with me,
and just forget the world
- Snow Patrol, Chasing Cars
How often do we come across situations or moments in our lives that can make time stop?
You can plan these moments out in your head but you can never plan or know how your gonna feel. I guess thats why time stops...
All of our young lives we search for someone to love. Someone that makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope. All the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, there's someone perfect who might be searching for us...
every thing
on our own
we don't need
anything
or anyone
if i lay here,
if i just lay here,
would you lie with me,
and just forget the world
i don't quite know
how to say
how i feel
those three words
are said too much
they're not enough
if i lay here,
if i just lay here,
would you lie with me,
and just forget the world
forget what we're told
before we get too old
show me a garden
thats bursting into life
let's waste time chasing cars
around our heads
i need your grace
to remind me
to find my own
if i lay here,
if i just lay here,
would you lie with me,
and just forget the world
forget what we're told
before we get too old
show me a garden
thats bursting into life
all that i am
all that i ever was
its here in your perfect eyes
they're all i can see
i don't know where
confused about how as well
just know that these things
will never change for us at all
if i lay here,
if i just lay here,
would you lie with me,
and just forget the world
- Snow Patrol, Chasing Cars
How often do we come across situations or moments in our lives that can make time stop?
You can plan these moments out in your head but you can never plan or know how your gonna feel. I guess thats why time stops...
All of our young lives we search for someone to love. Someone that makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope. All the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, there's someone perfect who might be searching for us...
Monday, September 25, 2006
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Banksy
I was thinking to myself the other day that the whole system is essentially fundamentally flawed.
I've always debated who gets to decide whats right and whats wrong.
We need more people like Banksy. What better way to challenge the system than through creativity.
- It's easier to get forgiveness than permission.
-Leave the house before you find something worth staying in for.
-The time of getting fame for your name on its own is over. Artwork that is only about wanting to be famous will never make you famous. Any fame is a by-product of making something that means something. You don't go to a restaurant and order a meal because you want to have a shit.
For those of you who haven't heard of him, shame on you...
I've always debated who gets to decide whats right and whats wrong.
We need more people like Banksy. What better way to challenge the system than through creativity.
- It's easier to get forgiveness than permission.
-Leave the house before you find something worth staying in for.
-The time of getting fame for your name on its own is over. Artwork that is only about wanting to be famous will never make you famous. Any fame is a by-product of making something that means something. You don't go to a restaurant and order a meal because you want to have a shit.
For those of you who haven't heard of him, shame on you...
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Thoughts from my random mind
I’ve been thinking about writing all sorts of stuff, but I just haven’t got down to doing it. I had an interesting discussion with a friend of mine over the weekend. We were talking about how old are we? Not us, but our planet.
To me numbers that professionals give us will always be speculative. I don’t think anyone on this planet is able to fully access or give us even anything accurate as to how old this planet actually is. Yes I do find it a little strange that of all the planets in our solar system ours is the only one with life. The time taken to revolve around the sun is 365 ¼ days which constitute a year. The time taken to for the earth to revolve around its own axis is a day. So according to lawsonomy time as recognized by man is merely a record of the number of revolutions made by the Sphere upon which he lives. So we rely on our fellow species to tell us exactly how things work around us. Not just for time, for practically everything else as well. Which is a different issue really but everything we don’t know is someone else’s interpretation of it.
How many of you actually think that dinosaurs look like exactly how they’re portrayed in Jurassic park. Yes a lot of research has gone behind what we call Paleontology but the fact of the matter is no one has a photograph of an actual dinosaur. So no one really knows what one looks like. How much are we to really on our imaginations. Actually that’s the only thing we can rely on. What can we base it on? Exactly how our fellow species defines it out to be.
You look at civilizations. I’m being very general and not going into details. At one point in time, practically each country had its own unique individuality without the influence of anyone else. Now I’m wearing clothes and speaking a language that in all actuality isn’t my own. If people around me in my work place can’t speak English as fluently as me, I actually have a stereo typical view which I’m not very proud of. It seems the course of the world is an interesting one. You take the biggest powerhouse in the world today. They don’t really have what we define as culture. But instead they really are a bunch of people from everywhere else who now constitute they’re one nationality. Their history is really self explanatory. I guess that’s pretty much why they are the biggest powerhouse because actually speaking they are a conglomerate of the world put in one country.
I remember way back in the 3rd grade a teacher asked us what the process of primates turning to humans is called. The answer being evolution she then proceeded to ask us if evolution is a whole process where in primates have evolved into the human species how come this process has stopped. What actually does control this process and how come we’re still not in that process? Another interesting question I remember a teacher asking me way back was to do with extra terrestrial life. Why is it that when we imagine them or portray them, we do it in the most ugliest, disgusting, weirdest form ever? Take alien or species or even E.T. So if they do exist or if we want them to in our movies why haven’t we pictured them in a better light?
Right so back to dinosaurs. The reason I’m writing about this is because I’m really confused as to how this whole thing works. Not the technicalities but more in term of events that are in all actuality just supposed to be random but in totality define so many things that concern our lives today. So one day something really crazy happened and dinosaurs just disappeared. It was obviously a random event. With so much speculation no one will actually ever know what happened. Whether an asteroid finished them off or due to a change in atmospheric climate conditions we now live on a planet that was once dominated by their species. So who’s to say none of this cant happen again?
When I mentioned earlier about the change in atmospheric climate conditions, what I really was talking about was that volcanic activity ceased which means that temperature levels were dropping which ultimately led to oxygen levels dropping. So its difficult for a dinosaur the size of a 10 storied building to get oxygen to all parts of its body. So my point really is the occurrence of random events. Where in no one actually knows what’s going to happen when. What really controls volcanic activity, earthquakes and other natural disasters? The world would definitely be a different place if there was more land than water. It seems like if there were someone who had control over us, every time he felt we were going outta control he’d use a tsunami to tame us. Yes I know, a very silly conception. Though we can monitor when the possibility of an earth quake is about to arise we don’t have time scales in terms of predictability.
So if the universe is infinite there is an infinite chance of anything and everything happening out there. Including an asteroid headed our way. I’m not really a paranoid person. But I’m more curious in terms of the future. Looking back to what seems like a very colorful history for us and our planet one can’t resist looking ahead either. The fact that the earth has evolved in terms of lifestyles so much in the last 20 years, more than it probably has in the past 200. So how much better does it get? Or do we get stagnant?
Looking at the world in which we live in today and probably what it was like 50 years ago, I say these are some pretty interesting times to come what with the way technology just seems to be galloping ahead.
There was a whole bunch of random stuff I wanted to post. But it’s a little scattered at the moment. So ill probably put in another post later or simply just update this one.
Some food for thought, one of the revelations that hit me when I was having that conversation with my friend was, was the fact that how do we know that the human species wasn’t wiped out and started all over again. In all honesty a billion years ago the human species reached the year 5000 was wiped out by an asteroid or natural disaster and then a billion years later they re-evolved to where we are now in the 21st century.
To me numbers that professionals give us will always be speculative. I don’t think anyone on this planet is able to fully access or give us even anything accurate as to how old this planet actually is. Yes I do find it a little strange that of all the planets in our solar system ours is the only one with life. The time taken to revolve around the sun is 365 ¼ days which constitute a year. The time taken to for the earth to revolve around its own axis is a day. So according to lawsonomy time as recognized by man is merely a record of the number of revolutions made by the Sphere upon which he lives. So we rely on our fellow species to tell us exactly how things work around us. Not just for time, for practically everything else as well. Which is a different issue really but everything we don’t know is someone else’s interpretation of it.
How many of you actually think that dinosaurs look like exactly how they’re portrayed in Jurassic park. Yes a lot of research has gone behind what we call Paleontology but the fact of the matter is no one has a photograph of an actual dinosaur. So no one really knows what one looks like. How much are we to really on our imaginations. Actually that’s the only thing we can rely on. What can we base it on? Exactly how our fellow species defines it out to be.
You look at civilizations. I’m being very general and not going into details. At one point in time, practically each country had its own unique individuality without the influence of anyone else. Now I’m wearing clothes and speaking a language that in all actuality isn’t my own. If people around me in my work place can’t speak English as fluently as me, I actually have a stereo typical view which I’m not very proud of. It seems the course of the world is an interesting one. You take the biggest powerhouse in the world today. They don’t really have what we define as culture. But instead they really are a bunch of people from everywhere else who now constitute they’re one nationality. Their history is really self explanatory. I guess that’s pretty much why they are the biggest powerhouse because actually speaking they are a conglomerate of the world put in one country.
I remember way back in the 3rd grade a teacher asked us what the process of primates turning to humans is called. The answer being evolution she then proceeded to ask us if evolution is a whole process where in primates have evolved into the human species how come this process has stopped. What actually does control this process and how come we’re still not in that process? Another interesting question I remember a teacher asking me way back was to do with extra terrestrial life. Why is it that when we imagine them or portray them, we do it in the most ugliest, disgusting, weirdest form ever? Take alien or species or even E.T. So if they do exist or if we want them to in our movies why haven’t we pictured them in a better light?
Right so back to dinosaurs. The reason I’m writing about this is because I’m really confused as to how this whole thing works. Not the technicalities but more in term of events that are in all actuality just supposed to be random but in totality define so many things that concern our lives today. So one day something really crazy happened and dinosaurs just disappeared. It was obviously a random event. With so much speculation no one will actually ever know what happened. Whether an asteroid finished them off or due to a change in atmospheric climate conditions we now live on a planet that was once dominated by their species. So who’s to say none of this cant happen again?
When I mentioned earlier about the change in atmospheric climate conditions, what I really was talking about was that volcanic activity ceased which means that temperature levels were dropping which ultimately led to oxygen levels dropping. So its difficult for a dinosaur the size of a 10 storied building to get oxygen to all parts of its body. So my point really is the occurrence of random events. Where in no one actually knows what’s going to happen when. What really controls volcanic activity, earthquakes and other natural disasters? The world would definitely be a different place if there was more land than water. It seems like if there were someone who had control over us, every time he felt we were going outta control he’d use a tsunami to tame us. Yes I know, a very silly conception. Though we can monitor when the possibility of an earth quake is about to arise we don’t have time scales in terms of predictability.
So if the universe is infinite there is an infinite chance of anything and everything happening out there. Including an asteroid headed our way. I’m not really a paranoid person. But I’m more curious in terms of the future. Looking back to what seems like a very colorful history for us and our planet one can’t resist looking ahead either. The fact that the earth has evolved in terms of lifestyles so much in the last 20 years, more than it probably has in the past 200. So how much better does it get? Or do we get stagnant?
Looking at the world in which we live in today and probably what it was like 50 years ago, I say these are some pretty interesting times to come what with the way technology just seems to be galloping ahead.
There was a whole bunch of random stuff I wanted to post. But it’s a little scattered at the moment. So ill probably put in another post later or simply just update this one.
Some food for thought, one of the revelations that hit me when I was having that conversation with my friend was, was the fact that how do we know that the human species wasn’t wiped out and started all over again. In all honesty a billion years ago the human species reached the year 5000 was wiped out by an asteroid or natural disaster and then a billion years later they re-evolved to where we are now in the 21st century.
So how old actually are we?
It's like that Porsche ad, imagining what it could be like is a poor substitute for knowing...
Monday, July 31, 2006
部外者
If you have pleasant memories of the past which turned sour, leave them there. When you have those same elements of that past come by you in the present, keep an open mind.
Release your mind, search yourself.
Those elements are only meant to be reinforced.
I'm Gaijin and I wouldn't have it any other way.
Release your mind, search yourself.
Those elements are only meant to be reinforced.
I'm Gaijin and I wouldn't have it any other way.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Intuition
I've always wondered how it works. It is it really luck or a series of random situations and consequences that helps us to develop this extra sensory power. Too many close calls in my past have brought me to believe that it is definitely more than mere coincidence.
Its like David Blaine said on one of his shows. The phone rings and you know exactly who it is. Or you're just simply staring at your phone expecting it to ring and a couple of seconds later it does. I was sharing a cigarette with a friend the other day on my balcony when he asked me where my dad was. I said he wasn't home yet and I know when he'd be on the way coz my sister said she'd call when they left. So I knew once she called I'd have to stub the cigarette and head back inside. So we smoked a couple of cigarettes and I wasn't worried in the least bit coz I was expecting her to call. I don't know whether it was random or jus the anticipation of the expectation of that call that made me check. She had sent a message 20 mins ago sayin they were on the way. So we stubbed out and headed back inside. Sure enough my doorbell rings a couple of mins into us steppin back inside. So if id checked my phone a couple of mins later I would have been in the shits considering they weren't expected until a whole lot later.
The other day I was talking to my Dad about some random person and sure enough we bump into him on the road the next day. The odds of which are definitely slim to none. I was talking to a cousin about a friend of mine who lives in another city, I hang up with him and a couple of mins later my friend calls n I haven't spoken to him in ages.
One of the classics that I'd like to deem happened a couple of years ago. I used to sneak out in the middle of the night once in a while to chill with friends. We'd have a quick couple of drinks n then I'd head back coz no matter how adventurous you are the paranoia eventually gets to you. I say paranoia coz in order to enter my room 3 doors have to be opened,the house door, the TV room door and my room door. In order to get to the TV room I have to surpass my parents room. That's the hardest part. Once I'm through the TV room, its the safe zone. Technicalities aside my Dad has always had erratic sleeping habits. Due to the traveling and time differences he many a time wakes up in the middle of the night to watch TV. He chooses to step outta his room coz he doesn't wanna wake my mom. Which doesn't work very well for me. So that night on consuming copious amounts of alcohol I figure I'll slip into my room MI:3 style.
I open door no.1 things seem quiet. On my way past my parent's room I hear a door close. I figure someone's just used the toilet. At this stage the adrenalin kicks into overdrive. In a 10 second dash I find myself behind the room of my door panting real hard when I hear the TV room door open. In a minute the TV is on and my dad is watching the tube. I struggle to imagine how I got away. Its not like I get away with it all the time. I have been caught. But I've definitely escaped more times than I have been caught. What prompted me to leave at that exact time and not a couple of minutes later? Intuition? I'm not quite sure. Yes if id left a couple of minutes before Id have been completely safe. But you can never get enough of a good thing.
There are so many things in this world that I do not understand. But it's definitely some food for thought.
Its like David Blaine said on one of his shows. The phone rings and you know exactly who it is. Or you're just simply staring at your phone expecting it to ring and a couple of seconds later it does. I was sharing a cigarette with a friend the other day on my balcony when he asked me where my dad was. I said he wasn't home yet and I know when he'd be on the way coz my sister said she'd call when they left. So I knew once she called I'd have to stub the cigarette and head back inside. So we smoked a couple of cigarettes and I wasn't worried in the least bit coz I was expecting her to call. I don't know whether it was random or jus the anticipation of the expectation of that call that made me check. She had sent a message 20 mins ago sayin they were on the way. So we stubbed out and headed back inside. Sure enough my doorbell rings a couple of mins into us steppin back inside. So if id checked my phone a couple of mins later I would have been in the shits considering they weren't expected until a whole lot later.
The other day I was talking to my Dad about some random person and sure enough we bump into him on the road the next day. The odds of which are definitely slim to none. I was talking to a cousin about a friend of mine who lives in another city, I hang up with him and a couple of mins later my friend calls n I haven't spoken to him in ages.
One of the classics that I'd like to deem happened a couple of years ago. I used to sneak out in the middle of the night once in a while to chill with friends. We'd have a quick couple of drinks n then I'd head back coz no matter how adventurous you are the paranoia eventually gets to you. I say paranoia coz in order to enter my room 3 doors have to be opened,the house door, the TV room door and my room door. In order to get to the TV room I have to surpass my parents room. That's the hardest part. Once I'm through the TV room, its the safe zone. Technicalities aside my Dad has always had erratic sleeping habits. Due to the traveling and time differences he many a time wakes up in the middle of the night to watch TV. He chooses to step outta his room coz he doesn't wanna wake my mom. Which doesn't work very well for me. So that night on consuming copious amounts of alcohol I figure I'll slip into my room MI:3 style.
I open door no.1 things seem quiet. On my way past my parent's room I hear a door close. I figure someone's just used the toilet. At this stage the adrenalin kicks into overdrive. In a 10 second dash I find myself behind the room of my door panting real hard when I hear the TV room door open. In a minute the TV is on and my dad is watching the tube. I struggle to imagine how I got away. Its not like I get away with it all the time. I have been caught. But I've definitely escaped more times than I have been caught. What prompted me to leave at that exact time and not a couple of minutes later? Intuition? I'm not quite sure. Yes if id left a couple of minutes before Id have been completely safe. But you can never get enough of a good thing.
There are so many things in this world that I do not understand. But it's definitely some food for thought.
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